I am not much on luck, nor do I believe in fate. Despite that I feel lucky and I feel as if this is where I am meant to be. It is different. I have felt many emotions in my life time. These emotions are different in subtle ways that make it all mean much more than I could imagine. You think about someone for three years and then it comes to the point where you realize they were thinking about you too. I always wondered what she thought of me, and now I know. I could not feel any better. I know it is young, and it is still unknown. I am afraid of where it will go, and I do not want to ruin anything. Despite all that I have this strange new feeling of strength. No matter what I fear, or how I come to those emotions. I know it will be ok. There is so much potential here. It does not even compare. It does not even matter though. I say that in a sense that I have learned to leave each day as its own. In order that I will never take anything or anyone for granted. I will never take her for granted. As I said, I do not believe in luck and I do not think of fate as a reality. It is all so strange. I would not trade it. I do not think I can. This is changing everything I have ever thought about relationships. Wow.

Wait a minute, cause I’ve been living more like a fucking king without you.
— Modern Baseball


I want to go to a mountainous area.
Where I can hike and take pictures!
And even build balancing rock sculptures.

It’s not what you look at that matters, it’s what you see.
— Henry David Thoreau 

Unnatural Death (series to be continued) - DS