I woke up today with a smile on my face.
I hope that today will be a better day.
I put on my shoes, and I brush my teeth.
I step outside and breathe that cool winter air.
I make my way to work just like everyone else does.
I sit here in the fast lane, waiting for the light to turn green.
I wonder why I am even here.
Why am I here? Right here in this moment.
But I cannot take this anymore,
Of faking smiles and passing trends like as if I cared.
I hate going to work, I hate putting on this smile.
I hate having to wear my own skin like a costume.
I want to be natural. I do not want to fit in.
I want to tread my path and make my own trails.
As literal as I can be, I want to be on my own.
I am just a kid in this selfish world.
I woke up today trying to forget,
What made me restless in my bed.
This cold world, these cruel fiends.
I wish my friend could know what I mean,
When I say that I love them but I cannot be here anymore.
Please do not take this as thoughts of suicide.
I just cannot live here anymore, I am sorry.
This day to day, this caged life I cannot stand it anymore.
I want to live free.
I want every day to hold something new for me.
If not here, than where?
I am not depressed; I am just upset at my situation.
I know in the end it will all work out and I will be ok.
I woke up today, I woke up still trying to smile because I know.
I know that even no matter how bad it gets this world is still a beautiful place.
One day I will find my place.
I will find my calling.
I will be ok.