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Earth/Human/Kansas/Life/Young

Park day with Taylor.

You will forever define how I feel about love.

Taylor

No one does it like you do.
No one ever has, and no one ever will. I am happy to be with someone such as you. No one has been as understanding and caring as you have been. To me, you are special. I am so lucky.

I love you.

When it comes to strength

"I read somewhere how important it is in life not necessarily to be strong, but to feel strong." - Christopher McCandless

I do my best to never feel weak, and only to be strong. In moments when I do not feel strong, it kills me inside and it fills me with doubts. Through these doubts I build my strength to know my weakness. To learn is to be watchful of your faults. Only then can you grow. So I do my best to grow and in only so in the ways which I know.

For you, I hope never to come off as weak when I am having doubts in myself. It is only for me to be stronger, and to do better for myself. That means to do better for you. When I make mistakes it kills my confidence, and it should. At the moments I need to wallow in it. To emerge better from sinking in it. I never want you to see me as weak, because I know you need someone to be strong for you. It is more than likely troubling when I am that way. I apologize for that.

I hope you know that I love you, and despite the doubts I put in you. These thoughts are not doubts in which you should feel about yourself and our relationship. They are doubts I have in myself. I am an insufferable mess when it comes to my emotions. As well as my confidence, at times. I have been wanting to talk to you and apologize for what I said. I know you do not want to talk about it much anymore. However, It still bothers me, and I am upset at myself. I feel better when I put my emotions out there, as a mess as they may be. I do want you to have to be caught in the turmoil of my own mind, but being with me is going to include that at times. I want you to know that it is not your fault.

I doubt myself at times, and I put that off on you.
I apologize and I am going to do my best to make it right.

I know too that apologies are only mere words, and they may not change anything. For me at this point, words are all I have. My actions will come to learn to not doubt myself. For when I truly take a step back and look at you and what we have. I realize how lucky I am to have you. You always encourage me. You are always there for me, and you always listen. I have no reason to doubt you, which means I should have no reason to doubt myself. You are so great, and I love you.

As I said I am going to my best to make it better for you.
I wanted you to know that, and it has been hard to say it all.

I love you.

pizzasn0b:

I usually don’t just go blabbing about this because it is no ones business but I just gotta say it. Dale and I have the best sex ever. Most satisfying sex I’ve ever and will ever have. Hah, tmi.

My girlfriend is the best girlfriend.

EAT YOUR HEART OUT.
To all my haters.

Change

Everything changes, and I know that it always will. This time it is different and it is because of you. I never held such a perspective about my life and about who I am supposed to be. I believe to the best of my knowledge that I have figured it out. You are here. I love that you are here. Nothing will ever change that, and that I know without any doubts. I have shared many doubts in my life, and many of them have strayed me wrong. I wish I would have ran with the hint everyone. With you it is different. There is no doubt in my mind that this where I am supposed to be. All the choices, right and wrong, have lead me here to you. I do not care how soon it is, but I am never leaving. I know what I feel and what I feel is this.

I love you, Taylor Nicole Thimesch. I know I will not regret what I feel or say in a few days, a few months, a few years, a few decades or even until the day I die.

My certainity of this has never been so clear. You have always been there for past three years of my life. Waiting for me and I waiting for you. Such a skinny love it is too good to be true, but it is. We both know it and that is all that matters.

I am so glad I found you.
I love you because I know what it means to love now.

I am in love. She is beautiful. In more ways than she realizes. View high resolution

I am in love. She is beautiful. In more ways than she realizes.

(Source: pizzasn0b)